For the past year I've been reading, listening, studding, gaining knowledge and doing my best to live my life with more purpose and Authenticity. I have learned tolerance, patience and to Let Go and Let God more than ever before. As I rapidly approach the big 5 0, I find myself reminiscing and pondering the life I have lived so far. And the mark I will leave upon this earth when I'm gone. And I have learned I am not alone in this quest for the answers to a meaningful life. How could I be, There is so much information out there, I couldn't be the first person to wonder WHY.
I have come to realize my life has been like this path that you see above, I have walked along it not knowing where it will take me, but, knowing for sure that I had to keep walking on. Hoping that if I make the right choices and follow my heart It will undoubtedly lead me to where I need to be and at the right moment.
I do believe in the sacred contracts that we make before incarnating. You know it, the one where we choose this life we live. I know why would we choose such things for ourselves, the pain, gilt, despair the list goes on. But I also believe you are given 2 choices in every situation and everyone has free will and that can change the outcome of the situation. I have come to also realize that never once was I left alone to find my way, but I was gently guided down the path, and when I fought with resistance and went my own way I was followed and never left alone. And those wrong choices were made right somehow someway. I had no knowledge of this guidance however, and it would have been very helpful if the voices were louder so I could hear them loud and clear and save myself the pain of finding out the hard way.
I started this quest within the walls of my small community Church where my husband and I go to worship. It's a beautiful Historical country Church, White with the Red doors, the bell in the steeple and the Balcony over looking the sanctuary that could hold 200 but on most Sundays only holds to 90 to 120. Each person with a different story to tell and all their for different reasons, I'm sure.
http://www.hayhouseradio.com which is full of inspirational speakers and all the self help information one could want. I would tune in every week to catch Dr. Wayne Dyer http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ijYWNKP2NEI&feature=related , Louse Hay, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qYCamVx4fSQ.
Along with these others Colette Baron-Reid, Denise Linn, Caroline Myss, John Holland, Debbie Ford, Lisa Williams, Sylvia Browne and Cheryl Richardson. I downloaded Marianne Williamson's, Dr. Dyers, Lousie Hay's and many more books on my MP3 so on my travels hunting for those great vintage treasures and on long trips I could gain more awareness and multitask at the same time.
I've listened to and really tried to understand the concept of Esther & Jerry Hicks, but must say I just don't get the whole Abraham thing at all http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RTb6mKAwftA. I bought the book The Secret http://www.thesecret.tv/ . Which I have since sold on Ebay. But am still trying with some success to manifest the things I desire.
http://www.contacttalkradio.com/index.php and enjoy Listening to Livin on a Prayer with Michele Morgan http://www.contacttalkradio.com/hosts/michelemorgan.html http://www.michelemorgan.org/, Intuitive with Jamie Roth, http://www.contacttalkradio.com/hosts/jamieroth.html, Finding Your Soul's Path & Staying the Course with Rev. Maxi Harper http://www.contacttalkradio.com/hosts/maxiharper.html, Adventures in Density & Effort with Joan Newcomb http://www.contacttalkradio.com/hosts/joannewcomb.html and Create Change Now with Cari L Murphy http://www.contacttalkradio.com/hosts/carimurphy.html. All are great shows and fun topics. But still the quest continues......
Here are a few affirmations that have helped me along the way:
- I use my maturity and wisdom to recognize the Truth.
- There is a divine plan for my life and the divine plan is unfolding for me now.
- God show me the divine plan for my life.
- In a relaxed and easy manner I have all the money required for business, personal and more. The Universe has a constant flow of financial abundance filling my accounts in every second of the day, every day of the week, and every week of the year.
I have thought about Numerology and Astronomy but Couldn't bring myself to open those books.
I have joined an area group http://www.frontiernet.net/~hclny/index.html so I can be with like minded people from time to time, that let me tell you are hard to find in my neck of the woods.
I have the book Simple Abundance A Daybook of Comfort and Joy by Sarah Ban Breathnach within arms distance of my work space. A keepsake box of Crystals if I need them, My new Yin and Yang sculptures that I just purchased from http://www.etsy.com/shop/OOAKSculptures the digital image of spirit of the spring woodlands that I also purchased from an Etsy shop http://www.etsy.com/listing/45405729/spirit-of-spring-woodlands and the picture of Jesus hanging on the wall all give me inspiration and hope.
So as you can see I've done the research, I have sought out the knowledge. It all seems so overwhelming when I look at it all written down like this. And wonder how in the world did I find the time.
So what have I learned in this 12 month quest, as I take a deep breath and sigh I guess the answer is as long and involved as the journey itself.
After all of this I have learned I started searching years ago long before I started the quest. It all comes back to treating the Universe with respect and the understanding that we are only here temporarily, to learn what we need to learn before we are reincarnated back home. We are here to give what we can not to take what we can.
What it comes down to for me, is my belief in God and the Holy Trinity. And also aware that we are not alone. God did not put us here to walk alone or to walk without purpose. He gave us tools for our journey to use and to call upon the angels when we need guidance. Each of us has a God given right to find the answer for ourselves within ourselves. And sometimes you just have to believe and Let Go and Let God.
The Universe will always answer you back but you must be open for the answers.
I know God will never leave me alone and is always walking with me softly whispering in my ear and giving me the courage to move forward.
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.
Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.